Tuesday 24 April 2012

IOrdinary people.


The way I see it, there a million reasons to feel alone.  And living in the modern age where communication is so little through face-to-face contact it's getting easier to get swallowed up.

When your friends are far, and your family are fleeing it's pretty difficult to not throw the head up and accept your uttermost destiny may be sitting in your parents house eating melted chocolate and watching re-runs of the Simpson's.  When your job is shit, and there are more health problems cropping up everyday, you can get fed up using them as an excuse it can take everything not to just lose both hope and inspiration.

I think the key to not getting swallowed up is to have a focus.  Whether it's a solid goal like getting your degree, or a self-goal like surviving this weeks workload.  Without these it's easy to get engulfed and to not really see a way out.  So easy to get so snowed under in life's displays of what's wrong with your life - and what's wrong with you.

Regrettably I have not been a positive person as of late.  And although I have managed to survive to this point I'm not really proud of how I've got here.  But I am proud that I did get here.  It's going to take a hell of a lot of work in absolutely every area of my life.  But it's life - you can't let it's problems overshadow you.  You can't let the thought of other people overshadow you.

If you try and make yourself better by putting trying to put yourself above others you will not win.  I have definitely learned that this week.  By celebrating others you can learn to appreciate yourself.  Alternatively you can look on facebook and think how much prettier everybody else is, people who you don't have friended.  If we did this constantly, I can guarantee that we would not accomplish any happiness.

But it will get you to a cosy bit of your bed that you never want to leave.
And it will assure you that no matter what you do or achieve, it will never be enough