You look at me, it's like you've hit me with lightning.

It's a bit hard to handle.

Letters.

1. I think you're really genuine, and you've got just the personality which makes me want to run around the city showing you all my favourite places. I'm scared you're not that person, and I don't want to be disappointed, not by you.
2. I like that we're getting closer and I like that no matter how many of my rants, mental breakdowns or emotional extremities I press upon you you always comfort me and make me feel good about myself and my abilities.
3. You're kind of my rock, and you never fail to make me laugh. I hope to be with you forever, and ever.
4. I actually hate that there's a small part of me that only you understand, and only you find endearing.
5. I think you're absolutely adorable, and I'm scared to put to much expectation on you because I've known you for such a minuscule amount of time. Your sense of humour is right on the button too, you make me do that goofy laugh. :)
6. You make me feel very awkward, I wish you'd stop trying so hard.
7. It's difficult for us to hang out more often, and I wish it wasn't because you're actually an awesome person, I would love if you made the effort into being a really great friend.
8. You unbelievable bitch.
9. I really doubt the truth in some of the things you say, but I know better than to bring it up so I'm trying hard to convince myself to believe what you tell me. What you say, and your actions contradict each other very much.
10. It hurts me because I can still really see how much you're hurting, but you know if I walked into your life it'd just get more complicated and we'd end up hating each other. I just hope that that facade you have up won't stop you from achieving real (and true)happiness.
    

Simplicity.

Sometimes I feel like life can creep up to you, it can tear you apart one minute and the next you're laughing so much your dimples are sore and you don't think you've ever been happier. I know that's life, but I feel some people feel a bit more emotional instability than others. Some people can remain happy whatever happens to them, others have to live in the moment to be happy.

It got me thinking to why we do things, and why we should do them. We do things for others, so we'll look smart, so we'll look attractive. However you get in those moments when you're just... happy and you don't need to pretend or exaggerate. You can just eat all the popcorn, or laugh so loud and long you forgot why it was so funny in the first place or run out into 8 inches of snow in your slippers and announce that everybody now has to get ready to build an epic snowman. You can spend your whole life making up things, making up emotions and finding reasons to justify what you do. In the end your happiness is what matters, and your happiness should be reason enough to want to do anything.

Things that annoy me.

1. When anybody puts 'xo's at the end of sentences.
2. Terrible grammar.
3. Customers who shout at you for something which is 100% not your fault.
4. Over the top Christmas decorations.
5. When you're really hungry, then eat a huge meal and immediately feel obese.
6. That feeling when leaving somewhere that you've forgotten something.
7. Christmas music/shops in October.
8. Never having your hair sit right, and not knowing how to do it nice.
9. Over-coupe-ly couples, especially when you're alone with them.
10. When you buy something special for yourself, and somebody eats it.
11. Messages off social networking sites of males saying 'hi hws u sxc?'
12. When your phone battery dies suddenly.
13. Music snobs.

Couple Season.

It's couple season, and it's family season. It's the season where you're dying to cuddle up in blankets and duvets with a hot water bottle. I once read in an article that summer is the season to be single; you have loads of free time to be with your friends, have a holiday romance abroad, work and go out dancing. You feel free and the hot weather lets you able to do what you want with your time.

In juxtaposition this time of the year is when the wild parties and smiling group pictures have turned into a scene at the end of Love Actually. Firstly in this situation the couple would meet maybe about September/October/November, which corresponds with the start of school/tech/uni. I have found this to be very true, as most of the people I know were single at the beginning of term but now seem to have paired off with each other. This means when the really cold weather comes, when the snow falls people have somebody to share it with romantically. When Christmas comes people are buying each other cinnamon lattes at coffee stalls and eating boxing day sandwiches with leftover turkey. When New Year comes they have somebody to kiss on the bridge under the fireworks, and hold hands waiting for the new year to bless them with more time together. When February comes they head to Clinton's and buy an over sized teddy bear holding a heart and go out to dinner.

Couple season can be nice and can be sparkling. But something about it seems a bit overdone, a bit desperate and dare I say it... a bit pathetic. We define our relationships by how long we've been together, how many times we say 'I love you', how much time we spend together. I just think that the best way to define a really good relationship is being strong enough to challenge each other, experience each other and see the world. We shouldn't get into relationships because it's convenient, or because if we're not we'll feel worthless or unattractive.

We've already been in relationships, we have to be realistic and realise our next relationship will have the butterflies but it will have elements of annoyance, jealousy and days of wanting to be single all over again. It's important to not get caught up with the lovey dovey tripe that's sometimes translated over to us and think about a realistic relationship we might someday get ourselves into.

And remember to always to keep dancing, and keep your spirits up. Or the New Year months will tear you apart.