Emotional update.

I was wading through a week of blurred emotions and strange change I wasn't sure if I approved of, and I coped with it by having a good few heart to hearts with somebody close to my own. Trying to organise my emotions, wants and needs; we swapped laughable stories and stories which we'd never even thought about saying out loud.

You see you can mask your emotions, or you can choose not to acknowledge them at all. You can belittle them, or you can minimise them completely. Sometimes if you keep sweeping them under the carpet you forget they could be brought out and examined, or shared and comforted. Sometimes they swell under the surface and slowly everybody starts to see them when you're trying your best to keep them under wraps. But you gotta live.

You gotta find out what makes you feel alive and you have to grasp it and feel it as much as you possibly can. Fill yourself up to the brim with excitement and love for your own life. Because those moments and those people define your life and give it the whole reason why you're working to achieve your happiness. Otherwise why bother?

I guess you just need to have hours long heart to hearts which somebody who knows exactly what you mean on your bed until you both fall asleep for it to come clear that you're not alone.
...and that you've done the right thing. ...and that you won't feel like this forever.