Friday, 10 July 2009

Don't hold on if you should be letting go.



Relationships end, and relationships begin. Sometimes we forget that.
Sometimes the friendships we're in seem like they're always going to be there, however we treat the other person. We think we can give a friendship a backseat and it'll be a strong as it ever was. But that means we've grown up in the time we've spent without the friend and we may be growing apart from them.

I'm very conscious about not letting go of people, and I tend to attach myself emotionally to the positon of the person I have a relationship with. I believe you should not let go of a friendship unless it's completely unavoidable, or if you're the only one making all the effort. But sometimes it's vital to let go, and not hold on 'til the point it's causing you a lot of pain desparately trying to hold on.

A friend of mine broke up with her boyfriend recently. It was a mutual decision and quite appropiately made, but for some reason it had really shocked me. Both parties were lovely people, both were going places, and seemed completely into each other and had claimed they loved each other in thier short relationship.

I think the problem with me, is that love for me is the end of relationships. Love for me is that I've found the one person that I can love and that will forever love me back. It's not a case of a guy who I love, break up with, and find a new guy to fall in love with in the next few months.

Of course I understand that relationships have problems and may end up being broken by many different things, and that even if there is love, love does not automatically solve all the broken pieces in the relationship - but it must help a great deal.

I just hope that the decisions people made to end relationships are well thought out and meditated. They'd need to be as it's too precious to let anybody fall out of your hands. I guess it's even more important to know that you will be forced to let go when you don't want to but you really do need to.

Friday, 3 July 2009


Beauty is judged by the size of your heart, not the size of your jeans.

Don't ever let anybody ever stump your creativity.


I've met a lot of people in my life who tried to make me make decisions which I wasn't prepared to take. I've met even more people who have really tried to bring me down on decisions I'd already made.

I've been ridiculed for picking English as the subject which I would like to create a career from. I was told by a lot of people that I should do Occupational Therapy or Podiatry. That way I'd be guaranteed a job and I wouldn't have a 'Mickey Mouse' degree that didn't really point me anywhere.

I'll take this example and lead it forward as it's the best example I can come up with.
I guess my decision was based on my immense passion and flair for the subject, and even though I wasn't top of the class, and it seemed unclear to others why I was picking English, it was apparent to me, that I think I'd only be happy working in a career filled with reading and possibly one day writing literature.

However it's not even as simple as that. Often people try to take your achievements, your passion or even your calling and belittle them into mediocre things that not even aren't a big deal, but are actually minus marks against you. How ludicrous!

Be proud of who you are no matter what the cost, do what you want even though some people will always try to see the bad points. In the end, it is only with yourself and what satisfaction you get from your career, or your achievements you've worked hard to achieve. Don't ever let anybody get you down or make you doubt yourself, or the decisions you've made.

Your creativity, your thoughts and your achievements are the things that make you unique and the things that will end up helping you make important decision that couldn't be made by outsiders opinions. Your own creativity is something that nobody else (despite mimicking your flair or stealing your ideas) can ever take away from you.

Don't ever let anybody ever stump your creativity; It's the only thing you truely own.

Thursday, 2 July 2009

I feel like I should've written this.

Confidence boosts.


Confidence boosts comes in different sizes and different levels of intensities.

Sometimes a good day gets a confidence boost, where as a bad day has the opposite effect. You can get a massive confidence boost by a stranger telling you that you're lovely or by meeting a new person who compliments you straight away.

Confidence makes us feel like we're the best version of ourselves and we're capable of doing things and accomplishing what we've set out to do.

I recently started a new job, and I was applying left right and center and I was very unconfident about whether I was going to get anything. I got an interview for a job and went in there as the person I was, I didn't put on an act, and I spoke (perhaps nervously but) confidently and I left and felt good about how I answered the questions. However I was aware that I had no retail experience at all, and most of the people applying would have the experience - so really all I had going for me what who I was as a person.

I was told I'd get a call on Monday or Tuesday. So there I was barely leaving the house in case they rung. Monday passed, Tuesday passed, and Wednesday passed. I realised that I hadn't got the job, and it was completely understandable as I was a nineteen year old that hadn't had a job at all and had little to no experience needed for the position.

So I was running about getting myself in gear for a volunteer work filled summer. Organising working in a lovely little bookshop I've grown to love for the few 7 years. i had done just two shifts in the book shop when I got a phone call from the company who gave me that interview.

The phone call was to say that I had in fact got the job! I was doing 30 hours the next week and I was really delighted and surprised! So on Tuesday there, my first day I was speaking to my now co-worker who informed me that out of over 20 interviews I was the only one to be employed. I was absolutely gobsmacked!

Further into the conversation she was able to tell me that she'd took my number and gave it to the manager saying that I seemed like 'a lovely wee girl' and somebody who sounded like I'd be very nice to work with. My number was passed on and in interview I apparently showcased the same qualities that were picked out earlier on. It was such a confidence boost!

The lesson to me was that I should never lose confidence in myself and think that I'm not good enough for something. I really think that we all should trust in what we can do, and that our qualities outshine our lack of experience. We should never allow ourselves to feel inferior, when all we have to do is be the best version of ourselves and it's enough for others to see what we can achieve and how we can achieve it.

Oh and, it always helps to be lovely. :)

Just don't ever call me 'Mrs Cullen'

HA.